I need to change some stuff in my life, so while I figure that out I will be cutting back on how often I blog. Perhaps just once a week? That way when I do blog it will be quality reading not just something quickly thrown together. I need to rebuild an identity... I am going to work on a photography blog I meant to start a few months ago and now that it is cooling down I need to start my actual photography life back up. At this point? I will basically be starting from scratch because what I once could do with a camera just a couple years ago is not what I can do today. I am just not as mobile and I can't jump around to get those creative pictures so I need to come up with a new style. More importantly though, I need to make something of myself again so that "Multiple Sclerosis" is not my only identity...
It's funny though, I don't like to look back at my past, it depresses me. Why? Well, I had so much more back then (as far as a job, money, a car, friends, social life, a scholarly life, hobbies, etc) and now? Not so much... When I look "back" into my life it's like I only let myself go back to when I was first diagnosed with MS, that is when my "new" life started. I need this life to be better than my old life so I can allow myself to look back more. While I was thinking about that concept I decided to look back at my first blog post here, to see where it all started, and to see how far I have come. I have almost forgot just how much I have been through since I noticed my first symptom and though it doesn't feel like it most of the time, I have accomplished a lot and I have come a long ways. But now it's time to take it to the next level because I feel like I am just sitting here everyday while my life grows stagnant. I rarely have anything new to talk bout, just the same old stuff to complain about every week.
So I recommend you read my first blog post
to see what I was looking back on and to see just how far I have come. I will post again soon, probably while I am in Georgia at that patient advocacy meeting. Take care.