OK, it's been hard lately for me to be on top of my blog so I apologize. I feel like I am swimming against a violent current that only grows stronger with each futile stroke. I will come out of this poor state of being, this hopeless mentality, in time... Life is new, everything is new, I have to re-learn everything but the colors of this new life are all a hue I have never seen... Describing it would be like trying to explain how a sound tastes, it can't be done, only the one who experiences this phenomena can know what it is to feel it. As in reality itself, what is green to me may be blue to you.
Depression has been swallowing me whole and though the "strength in my legs" is (yes is not are) slowly dying and I have found myself dropped upon one knee to maintain ,y ability to stand up I am still doing just that; standing up. This is hard. This is extremely hard, but I didn't come this far to loose, I will win. I have to. So give me time to figure this all out and I will of course come back a million times stronger.