Hope you and your feet are not Squeamish!

So before I get to the good stuff let me apologize for my lack of blogging... Again... There just has been nothing to talk about! I want to get back to writing some more "educational" stuff but the 105 degree weather here in SoCal has just been draining me... I have been so fatigued lately and just sleeping all day... Anyways, the good stuff. About a month ago (or around that long ago) when I had my really bad relapse I guess my foot went a little numb without me realizing it. During that time I guess I stepped on something that decided to stick around. I didn't realize this till after my exacerbation had cleared up and I started feeling a sharp pain in my foot. When I checked it out I had a very distinct bump on my foot like there was something under my skin. I thought I had somehow stepped on a small rock or something because it was about the size of a small pebbel and even though I had not been outside it just felt like that was what was under my skin since the bump was so firm. This is one of the many reasons I don't like walking around barefooted...

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The Best things in the End are the Hardest in the Beginning

This post really doesn't have to do with MS but is more of just me journaling, stating my state of mind I suppose. It probably won't make any sense and that's a good thing because I don't really want it to, I just want to speak into the world and know that the words are not bouncing off the wall 2 feet from my face but instead working their way into society, into life, to be free and observed by any whom should choose to take interest in them. Im just in one of those moods you know? I just need to write, write so I can feel like I got what ever it is I'm talking about off my chest for my own personal satisfaction.

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Steroids Worked Fast! I Can See Again!

Well that was in fact the fastest I have ever responded to a steroid treatment and it was only 3 days on the IV! Granted I did start taking 80mg of Prednisone a few days beforehand which probably helped too but even still, my symptoms cleared up in less than 2 weeks and noticeably! No more double vision for me! Things are still a little blurry but my glasses fix that no problem so glad for that, will be doing some portraits later on this evening for some friends, it will be nice to be able to take some pictures and work on them without being blind!

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Steroids Helping Vision: Horrible Infusion Day

Oh my, what a day... Going to keep this one short because I am EXHAUSTED! So let's start with the good news first. The Prednisone I have been taking seems to have been helping my eyes. Today I have got to the point where I only get double vision if I look to my right. Everywhere else doesn't really double but it's still very blurry and sometimes doubles for a second if I move my eyes or head to quickly. Did just figure out that wearing my glasses with both lens exposed (was taping one for a while) lets me see so much more clearer than I have been able to see so wish I figured that out earlier today. Didn't realize how much of my impairment was just fuzziness!

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Double Vision and Vertigo: 6th Nerve Palsy?

FYI: Expect lots of spelling and grammar errors in this post, I can't see what I'm writing!

Just can't catch a brake can I? Just got over a pretty bad exacerbation and already something new is trying to bring me down! This one was kind of my fault I am assuming though... You see, I had a last minute wedding job present itself last Sunday and despite the heat I just HAD to take this opportunity because it could have potentially lead to many more well paying jobs! This could be the brake I needed! Did OK all day at the wedding, felt unusually fine I might say...

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Happy Belated Birthday Multiple Sclerosis

I wanted to post this yesterday but I was not feeling so well and slept most the day away. Exactly one year ago YESTERDAY, I started experiencing my first MS symptoms, a numbness in my right foot that rapidly spread up the right side of my body as a slight paralyses made its way up my left side. Over the next couple weeks my symptoms exploded into a variety of everything from blindness to loss of taste, even hiccups for days on end! I was in a wheel chair and could barely stay awake do to my sever fatigue. Of course this is a very general description of what I went through but you can read the full story in detail by clicking HERE.

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Fine Motor Skills and Antidepressants

Well first things first. Above is a video I posted demonstrating the progress of my hands from my last exacerbation. I had mentioned that they were really stiff and numb as if I had held them in a tub of ice water for half an hour but now they are clearly doing much better. In this case on the piano, it's still really hard for me to not hit multiple notes at once or to hit the RIGHT notes at all. Timing is tricky and I can't play as fast or smooth as I ounce did but I sure could fool you into thinking I could play a little haha. Same applies to typing: I make lots of mistakes by hitting two keys at ounce or the wrong one all together but nonetheless, much better.

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Still Slacking on the Blog but Trying to Keep it Positive!

I know, I know, I have STILL been slacking  on my blog! What's wrong with me?!?!? Well I'll tell you. Depression is a horrible, horrible thing isn't it? You can't think straight, you become irrational, the stupidest things make you want to brake down and cry yourself into a state of deadly dehydration, it makes you want to sleep all day, you can't function or work as well as you should, you loose sense of your priorities, and the world looses all of it's color. Although that last one could be a vision issue, might want to check that out.

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