Ok, so I have just about had it with all this stress and all these mood swings, time to get rid of it all! It's obvious that Solu-Medrol (IV Steroids) causes some negative effects in me and today I decided to sit down and weigh the pros and cons of taking this medication. I decided that it seems to be causing me more harm then good. The medication is stressing me out which in turn (do to my apparent sensitivity to stress) is just canceling out any positive effects the medication should be having. So in the long run its just causing me more stress and not really reducing my symptoms.
So now I will focus on my stress management and dieting to reduce my symptoms. The one period of time I seemed to be symptom free was when I was constantly going on hikes, walks, etc: Things I enjoyed doing and things that relaxed me. I think that's what I need to get my health back under control, I need to find my peace, my relaxation, my escape from the world and all it's stress. I need to get active again, go on hikes, embrace nature, and escape the current routine I'm stuck in.
The more detailed, strategic, part of this plan is to identify the stressors in my everyday life and come up with their opposite solutions. For example: I feel like I have no privacy or space of my own so I plan on buying a curtain to divide my bedroom in half so I don't have to actually SEE that I am sharing a room. Then Ill use classical music and other relaxing CD's to hopefully block out the sounds of my household and help me fall asleep with non-stressfull thoughts. I'll basically be creating the illution that I have my own space and privacy.
Music has always been a huge escape for me so I need to take advantage of that, I need an MP3 Player so I can block out the sounds of life when I feel overstimulated by the world. Maybe getting lost in the sounds of music in a dark room will help controll some stress.
I have a few other meditation ideas Ill be trying but bottom line is I have to try what ever I can to avoid the things that cause me stress even if that means waking up at 4:00am everyday to avoid waking up in the middle of a hectic household. Maybe starting my day off with an hour of quiet, alone time, will help me get through the day better. Who knows? I have to try it out and see how I feel. Ill be keeping a new, more detailed journal or blog soon strictly regarding how I feel on a daily basis as a result of changes in diet and habits. Not sure if I will make this public or not yet but maybe I'll be able to track and identify some helpful information regarding my treatment by doing this.
It's time for change, it's time to become a little more proactive, it's time for me to take controll of my health, its time for me to take controll of my mind.
I said before that I believed the mind and body are directly related when it comes to health, one can influence the other strongly, but I seemed to have forgot this... I need to regain my mind so I can regain my body. Time for some change.