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My name is Matt and I am 22 years old living with Multiple Sclerosis in SoCal. Most people fins me via my blog at http://www.mattsms.com and I work to connect people with MS from all over the world of different ages, genders, and walks of life.

Monday, January 31, 2011

What Do I Do Now?

NOTE: I do not have a medical degree of any sort. The following information is my personal description of the disease as I understand it from what I've been told by doctors and from my own personal research. Please feel free to email me at mattalleng@yahoo.com if you have any questions.

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Of all the questions that ran through my head when I was first diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis there was one that stuck out above all else: What do I do now? I was so lost in my medical mess of life and I had no sense of direction but I knew I needed one. My neurologist didn't help me out too much here so I had to do all my own research, had to find my own path, and as I mentioned before, that is the main purpose of this guide, to help you find your path quickly without wasting valuable time.

First Things First: Set a Plan

You NEED to set up a plan as soon as possible. This plan doesn’t have to be concrete nor does it have to be long term, you just need to set some goals and create a “map” on how you plan on getting to those goals and then you have to make it all happen! Don't let time waste away! If you have a list of goals then it's easier to pick one to knock out every day rather then letting them slip away from your mind.

Your Number one goal should be education! Learn everything you can about Multiple Sclerosis because the more you know about the disease the easier it will be to understand it and how it's effecting your body. The more you know about MS the more control you will have over it and of course the more you know about your health the easier it will be to make good medical choices with your doctor when determining your course of treatment.

Create a Research Plan!

The easiest way to start is by creating a list of every question you can think of regarding Multiple Sclerosis. Then everyday pick one or two of those questions and start doing research online or at a library. As you start doing some basic research you will more then likely find yourself asking more and more questions and the more you learn the more complex and detailed those questions will get. Start buying books on MS! Do all the reading you can! Make sure you get your information from multiple resources! Never depend on just one resource, especially when reading about Multiple Sclerosis! You will quickly find that many people have many different ideas on the disease so you have to do a lot of cross referencing and you have to learn to judge for yourself what is good information and what is useless information. Much like studying in school you will slowly develop your own methods of researching and learning but I can not stress this enough, education is truly the most important thing you can focus on when your first diagnosed! If you are not well educated about Multiple Sclerosis you might not start your life out on the best path you can for dealing with MS. Learn, learn, learn!

Create a Plan for Regaining Your Health!

You should actually start doing this immediately as well (in fact you will probably me more eager to research the getting better part then anything else) but it will be easier to set a solid plan once you know a little bit more about Multiple Sclerosis and once you have researched some of the medications and alternative medicines out there. As I have said before, MS effects everyone differently and the same can be said about medication: Everyone will claim one thing to work over another, some will claim to have found the cure, others will simply contradict everything that is out there insisting that exercise, dieting, and eastern medicines are useless.

There are Four things you should look into when it comes to regaining and maintaining your health: Medications, Diets, Exercise, and Eastern Medicines such as acupuncture. Most doctors are more then likely going to want to throw you on all sorts of medications because well, lets face it, that's what they are trained to do, that's where the money is... This is why it's up to you to look into exercising, dieting, yoga, and all that other good stuff. It might help you or it might not, the only way to find out is to actually try it and see how your body reacts to it! Everyone is different!

Educate yourself!

The more you learn about everything the easier it will be for you to map put a plan to maintain your
 life!

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I DO Have Multiple Sclerosis

NOTE: I do not have a medical degree of any sort. The following information is my personal description of the disease as I understand it from what I've been told by doctors and from my own personal research. Please feel free to email me at mattalleng@yahoo.com if you have any questions.

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So, you did the tests and everything came back positive for MS... You got a second opinion and it looks like you do in fact have Multiple Sclerosis... You are overwhelmed and you are scared. First of all let me say, I'm sorry your reading this wether your a new MS patient or the family member/friend of a new MS patient. Secondly I have to say, being confused and scared is normal but my goal here is to show you that you shouldn't be scared once you are educated about this disease.

What Is Multiple Sclerosis (MS)?

Between 250,000 and 350,000 people have MS in the United States alone which means about 200 people are diagnosed with MS a week. As common as a disease as MS can be, surprisingly, not too many people know what it really is.

Shortly put, MS is a disease that attacks the central nervous system (Brain and Spinal Cord) resulting in damage to Myelin (The protective insulation around our nerves) which lastly results in the symptoms that MS patients experience. There are 4 different types of MS but the most commonly diagnosed form is Relapsing Remitting Multiple Sclerosis (RRMS) which is described as MS with periods of relapses (exacerbations) and remissions (periods where symptoms have subsided)

For a detailed description of what Multiple Sclerosis is and how it works, CLICK HERE.

What Should I Know About Multiple Sclerosis?

First thing people want to know, “Is there a cure?” No... Unfortunately a cure has not yet been discovered but don't let that get you down! Right now we have what are known as “Disease Modifying Medications” which slow down or alter the course of the disease. These medications along with medical steroids allow many people with MS to live a healthy, fulfilling life, sometimes completely symptom free for years! That leads me to the next question your probably asking, “How long do these exacerbations last and how long will my remission last?” Well the truth is your never going to get a straight answer... MS effects everyone differently, but typically an exacerbation can last several weeks to several months. Same goes for remission periods, my first “remission period” lasted about a month before I started experiencing new symptoms but many people go years before relapsing. It's different for everyone so you unfortunately have to wait and see how the disease effects you.
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I MIGHT Have Multiple Sclerosis

NOTE: I do not have a medical degree of any sort. The following information is my personal description of the disease as I understand it from what I've been told by doctors and from my own personal research. Please feel free to email me at mattalleng@yahoo.com if you have any questions.

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When most people start experiencing strange symptoms like numbness or weakness they usually don't think “I might have Multiple Sclerosis (MS)” unless someone suggested it to them or they know someone who does have MS. So more then likely if you are reading this then you have been experiencing some kind of symptoms that pointed you in this direction and you are hopefully taking the initiative to do your own research and find out the likeliness that you might have Multiple Sclerosis rather then waiting for a doctor to tell you his or her opinion or read results to test you may already be waiting on.

COMMON SYMPTOMS

So first lets go over some of the common symptoms of Multiple Sclerosis. Everyone experiences this disease differently and so the symptoms someone with MS will experience will vary from person to person but here is a list of the typical symptoms patients will experience.

  • Double vision
  • Eye discomfort
  • Loss of balance
  • Muscle spasms
  • Numbness or abnormal sensation in any area
  • Problems moving arms or legs
  • Problems walking
  • Problems with coordination and making small movements
  • Tremor in one or more arms or legs
  • Weakness in one or more arms or legs
  • Constipation and stool leakage
  • Difficulty beginning to urinate
  • Frequent need to urinate
  • Strong urge to urinate
  • Urine leakage (incontinence)
  • Uncontrollable rapid eye movements
  • Vision loss (usually affects one eye at a time)
  • numbness
  • Facial pain
  • Painful muscle spasms
  • Tingling, crawling, or burning feeling in the arms and legs
  • Decreased attention span, poor judgment, and memory loss
  • Difficulty reasoning and solving problems
  • Depression or feelings of sadness
  • Dizziness and balance problems
  • Hearing loss
  • Problems with erections
  • Problems with vaginal lubrication
  • Slurred or difficult-to-understand speech
  • Trouble chewing and swallowing

Again, symptoms vary from person to person, for example, most people start experiencing vision problems first whereas loss of vision was one of my last symptoms to appear during my first exacerbation. I also have experienced many symptoms that are not on this list such as Lhermitte's Sign and loss of taste. 
 
GET TESTED

Regardless, if you are experiencing any number of these symptoms (particularly weakness and loss of balance along with vision issues) then you might want to bring MS up to your doctor and see about getting some tests ran. Your first going to need to get a referral to a neurologist which leads me to the most important part of visiting doctors when trying to solve a medical issue: Tell them what you want and get what you want! Many doctors like to assume that their first impression is the right answer, they like to use the words “I don't think that's really necessary” but guess what, the only thing running an extra test can hurt is someones ego! So if you hear those words then tell your doctor that you would still like to run the test just to be safe, for your own peace of mind, after all, that's how diagnosing works, you start by eliminating and ruling out each possibility til you find your answer. You HAVE to take control of your medical life! It's YOUR body, YOUR the boss!

The first test you want is an MRI: If your MRI results show that you have lesions on the brain then this is one of the main signs of Multiple Sclerosis. Take a look at a picture of my first MRI results below, see those little white spots? Those are MS Lesions.
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Now the second most important test: A spinal tap, or lumbar puncture as it's sometimes called. Don't let this scare you, everyone makes a big deal out of this but honestly, it's not that painful, in fact, the local anesthetics hurt more then the procedure itself! This is a very important test because if it comes out positive then you know you have Multiple Sclerosis but here is the the catch, if it comes out negative that doesn’t mean anything... You could very well have MS but still come up with negative test results with a spinal tap because they are simply looking for Myelin proteins in your spinal fluid that may or may not be present at the time of the procedure. Don't worry about what that is just yet, just know that a positive means MS but a negative means nothing. Some people have to have several spinal taps before they finally confirm MS but in my case, I got a positive to back up my MRI the first time. I looked at this as a good thing because I would rather know what I am battling right away then go years undiagnosed fighting an enemy without a name or a face but that's just my opinion.

You should also ask to have other various tests ran to make sure you don't have something similar to MS such as Lime Disease. Have everything checked out, remember, this is a process of ruling out every possibility so take every test you can.

GET A SECOND OPINION

At this point it never hurts to get a second opinion regardless of what your test results show or point to. If your neurologist doesn't seem to think it's MS then get a second opinion. If your neurologist does think it's MS, get a second opinion. Again, can't hurt anything but someones ego which is far less important then your health and well being!

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Saturday, January 29, 2011

New to Multiple Sclerosis

Multiple Sclerosis What To Do Lost MS

- MS User Guide: Getting Started -

Regardless of your age, being diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis (MS) can be a scary and confusing thing to deal with and that's OK. More then likely if you have come across this page, you or someone you know may have just been diagnosed with MS or are currently being diagnosed with MS. Your stepping into a completely new world full of confusing information, your doctors are bombarding you with strange terminology you have never heard of, you just want to know whats wrong with you, you feel lost.

The goal of this page is to give anyone new to MS a starting point in dealing with this new disease because everyone needs a sense of direction, a simple "guide", and sometimes that is hard to find. Below is a list of articles I have written that I believe would have helped me when I was first diagnosed. Hopefully this information will save you a lot of time "being lost" so that you can quickly get your life in order without wasting anymore precious time.

Please feel free to email me if there are any questions you have that are not answered below!

mattalleng@yahoo.com

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Thursday, January 27, 2011

My Thoughts: Don't Take Time for Granted

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"Dream as if you'll live forever, Live as if you'll die today" -James Dean

We as people tend to take things for granted, things like a home, a meal, a pair of shoes, even people. One thing we tend to take for granted but almost never realize is TIME. They say you don't know what you have until you loose it but often people don't even realize they are loosing time, that they are taking time for granted.

A friend of mine's friend's sister recently lost her husband. He was only 26 years old, was born with liver issues, had to do dialysis every other day, and died the other day of liver failure. 26. Twenty Six Years Old. This greatly shocked my friend who is 25 herself. Life presented itself as being very short at this point, it could be taken away at any moment.

T W E N T Y  S I X

So why am I bringing this up? People with Multiple Sclerosis know very well that people take the most simple of things for granted and that everything should be appreciated, especially the smallest of things, but I think that even people with MS after some time can loose track of this. I know myself that I am slowly taking less and less care of my body in comparison to when I went into my first "remission". I need to change that immediately.

We as people need to appreciate every moment we have here on earth because it's true, our time here can be robbed from us at any given moment. This is not a reason to live in fear, but a reason to "Live as if you'll die today". Simply stated, make the most of every second you live all the while you "dream as if you'll live forever".

Don't waste your time away, make every second count, enjoy and appreciate all the time you have. Take life in, enjoy the fact that you can smell the world around you, taste the delicacies of life, see the world and people you live with, hear the sound of a piano, the voice of a loved one, feel your environment, the warmth of your lovers hand. The little things are the most important, they are the things you miss most when you loose them, so take them in while you can.

"Dream as if you'll live forever, Live as if you'll die today" -James Dean
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Monday, January 24, 2011

Progress Update: Not so Great and EDD Isn't Helping

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Well, my balance is still getting worse and though I don't know if my cognitive issues are getting better, worse, or at a standstill, I can say for sure that they are still a persistent issue. Today my balance is really bad though, I am getting really clumsy again, I feel like I am going to trip over my legs when I try to walk but so far no falling, just horrible gate.

What I really wanted to mention was how EDD (CA State Disability) is not making anything better. I am 2 months behind on bills and owe all sorts of money and EDD has still yet to pay me for August of 2010 AND they have yet to file my latest claim which started in December... I HATE that I have to depend on the state for financial help right now, I just want to get my own JOB so I can take care of myself!

So what's really frustrating about EDD is that you CAN NOT get ahold of them. I have been trying to call them for weeks but can never get through, most the time I can't even get put on hold! They just hang up on you because they have reached the maximum number of callers they can handle. So frustrating!!!!


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Saturday, January 22, 2011

Progress Update: Mental/Cognative Health

PhotobucketAlright, I need to update my mental health situation as it seams to be getting worse. Cognitively I have not been doing so well. First it was just poor short term memory, something I have always had problems with that has been getting worse lately. For example, I find it hard to remember who I had certain conversations with, what those conversations were about or if I even really had them or not! I also seam to be running really slow up there in the head, I find myself completely blanking out especially when I'm tired. This is frustrating because I used to be such a "quick thinker". It's like there is absolutely nothing going on in my head, I simply read the information my brain is presented with and dispose of it as soon as I have read it. I don't know, hard to explain.

The most frustrating thing that has popped up can only be explained with an example. When I am writing (typing) I will intend on saying something like "The cat lives in a house" but when I read back what I wrote I will see "The cat doesn't in a house". I know exactly what words I want to use and tink I am writing them down but I actually end up writing something completely different down. It's not even a matter of association as if I wrote dog instead of cat. I will write completely, unrelated, random words down. It's really weird and driving me nuts!

I of course do have the problem of not being able to "come up with the right words" as I am right now... There is a word I am looking for, I know what it means and how it's used but I just can't think of it right now... Ironic... Anyways, I find myself having a hard time explaining certain things because I just blank out on my vocabulary. Very frustrating when you know exactly what it is you want to communicate you just can't find the words to do so.

What sucks the most about cognitive issues is people can't see them, they are "invisable symptoms". I feel for anyone else out there dealing with these kind of issues because you may look healthy but that doesnt mean you feel healthy. I am not sure what can be done about all this but I definitely have some research to do or at east need to talk to a specialist ASAP!

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Friday, January 21, 2011

My Thoughts: Progressing in Life

PhotobucketWell, today I suffered a bit of an "emotional breakdown". Happens to everyone and as strong as I try to be it happens to me too... Yes I may come off as one with a strong positive attitude but every now and then life gets the best of me and I crack, falling into the darkness of depression.

"Tough times never last but tough people do"

A friend told me that, a friend who doesn't know of my MS but saw that I was clearly having a bad day. What a great way of looking at things because it's so true. Times may be tough but they will not last for ever, however, I guarantee you that I will.

"In the end everything will be OK and if it's not OK then we haven't reached the end yet."

Another of my favorite quotes though who originally said this I am not sure. I have heard it was originally said by presidents, screenwriters, and poets but who said it doesn't really matter as it is a great quote and a great way of looking at life.

After I straightened my head out with the help of a good friend of mine, I realized that the source of my depression is the fact that I have not been progressing in life. Sure there are many other "social factors" that lead to my breakdown but ultimately, the underlying source of my depression is the fact that I am stuck in life. When you take away someones "options" in life that leads to dark feelings. I have very little options at the moment... I have no money, no job, no car of my own, hardly any friends, and so, I can't go out and do the things I want to do, I cant save up for the things I want to pocess, I can't move out, etc. I have no options, I have no choice but to sit in my room and watch time slowly pass by. This leads to my depression.

I want desperately to progress in life, to start my life, and when I talk about progressing, I am of course overlooking my health and talking specifically about my overall life, the life I wanted before I even had MS. The things that some people would refer to as "success" though don't get me wrong, I surely do not live by societies stereotypical set of standards. I know what I want and I know what will make me happy and that is what I am pursuing, my own views of success that is. I have no doubtingly made much progress in my health since my diagnosis (even though at the moment I am starting to have trouble again) but I want to succeed in my overall life endeavors or start making progress towards them that is. I don't want to feel stuck anymore, I want my options back.

I miss having a job and a car of my own with money to spend. I had options, I could actually do things, work towards goals, etc. I think if I had all that back I would be such a happier person, it would make such a huge difference in my life but right now I am so stuck and I hate it! It's driving me mad!

My overall point is that I have realized it's important to set goals in life and constantly move forward in order to feel accomplished at the end of the day: in order to feel like you have options and like your not stuck.

"Dream as if you'll live for ever, Live as if you'll die today". -James Dean
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Thursday, January 20, 2011

Progress Update: Loosing My Mind!

PhotobucketWell, my goal on this blog has been to share my experiance with everyone and so far most of it has been about my physical health but today lets talk about my mental well being.

I AM GOING CRAZY!

The last few days have been tough on me, the boredom has been overwhelming and this is pushing me over the edge of depression... I try my best to keep busy but when you are flat broke sometimes it's hard to keep the few hobbies you have at home from growing old... Boredom has always been my worst enemy when it comes to depression and this has become a major issue since I was diagnosed with MS because I am not always physically able to go out and do the things I once was able to do. Things obviously aren't too bad right now, it's really just a matter of not having money that's causing my boredom, but at the same time, my MS is acting up enough that getting and keeping a part time job might be a little tricky... I WISH I had a job right now, I need to feel accomplished at the end of the day, but right now that's not always such an easy thing to feel. Oh yeah, still nothing from disability and all the money I made on my last photoshoot went towards my medications... Frustrating but that's life.

So in attempt to conquer my boredom and to hopefully progress in life I have been focusing on my photography and writing. I am almost done editing my first draft of my novel and eager to start my second draft but I can only do so much reading in one day... My photography has been a bit slow do to a lack of popper funding to build my portfolio to the point where I will feel more comfortable looking for REAL work... Also hard to work on photography when you don't have a car and there is nothing local to visit... I did re-build my website a bit so that has made me eager to get some of the photo shoots I have lined up going, can't wait to get some good picture up on my site! Hopefully this weekend!

So yeah, I really feel like a hostage of time right now... I have been fighting to get my money back in court from someone I bought a dud car from... I won in court but they are not paying up... So now I have to file MORE paperwork and set up ANOTHER hearing to hopefully create some kind of obligation for them to give me my Two Grand back which would really help to have right now... My point is, I have been working on this since July of 2010... That money isn't coming my way anytime soon... Disability is taking for ever and there is nothing I can do to speed the process... Photography is on hol... EVERYTHING is on hold right now and it's driving me nuts!

I just want something to keep me busy and help me progress in life! I would really like to move out eventually because I am sick and tired of living in the corner of a bedroom I have to share with my brother at my parents house... I know what I want in life right now but there is not much I can do to obtain the simple life I want....

I'm frustrated and I'm LOOSING MY MIND!
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Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Progress Update: California is NOT for People with MS!

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Do you have Multiple Sclerosis? Are you thinking about moving to beautiful California? WELL DON'T! California (specifically Southern California) is a horrible, wretched, nasty, state for anyone with Multiple Sclerosis! Apparently this part of the country forgot what winter is and now only experiences periods of Summer (super hot) and Wana-Be Winter (A couple of weeks of cold with random days of HOT scattered about).

Forget about all the other "seasons", they DON'T EXIST IN CALIFORNIA. I can only assume that "fall" is the part of the year where you constantly FALL as a result of heat stroke and "Spring" is when you SPRING from your car (Easy-Bake Oven With Wheels) into the nearest air conditioned Wallmart everyday because it's too expensive to run the air conditioner year round.

I HATE it here is So-Cal! Only in SoCal can your burn your hand on the steering wheel in the middle of January! It's 80 Degrees outside right now and I have the AC running as I start overheating at just 75 degrees! Oh Yeah, did I mention it's JANUARY??? What the heck??? Talk about Global Warming! I can't live like this! I really can't wait til the day I can move out of California to somewhere much cooler! I would love to head over to Colorado or Washington, somewhere where the average summer high isn't 105 degrees. I like and NEED the cold!
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What Causes Multiple Sclerosis (MS)?

Many people know more or less what MS is but there is little understanding as to what actually causes MS and that is because the initial root cause of the disease has still yet to be discovered. There are many different theories such as environmental factors, gentic factors, infection, CCSVI (Chronic cerebro-spinal venous insufficiency), various issues with the immune system, toxins such as mercury, and so on. A lot of people believe that MS is actually caused by a variety of these theories rather then just one in particular: this idea refers to MS as what is known as a "multifactorial  disease".

Right now I want to share with you a simple chart that I created to express my view on the disease and how we treat it.

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As you can see the chart breaks Multiple Sclerosis into three simple sections: The actual cause of the disease, the resulting demyelination, and finally the symptoms experienced as a final result. Right now all we are doing is treating the actual symptoms rather then the underlying causes of the symptoms. When ever something new pops up we throw some more pills at it in hopes of keeping everything "tame".

This is partially do to the fact that we simply still do not know the cause of Multiple Sclerosis however, what we do know, is that every theory results in the same thing: Demyelination. So if researching and determining the root cause of the disease is too difficult at the moment then why not focus on the myelin "stage" of my chart? If it were possible to create drugs that focus on the regeneration of myelin then theoretically you could eliminate all the associated symptoms of MS without the use of a million pills. You would more then likely still need to take the disease modifying medications to help prevent myelin damage while the myelin regenerating medications help produce myelin faster then it is destroyed or at least reduce the amount of time nerve fibers are exposed.

Further down the line we can focus on finding, fixing, and preventing, the root cause of the demyelination which would basically be the actual cure for MS. As I have said a million times, I am no doctor, I am looking at this strictly from a "mechanical" point of view but to me, it just makes basic sense.

I am starting to strongly believe that there should be a huge focus on regenerating myelin in the "race to cure MS". Check out the "Myelin Repair Foundation" for more information and be sure to show them your support!

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Monday, January 17, 2011

Myelin Repair Foundation

PhotobucketI recently started a personal research project with a buddy of mine to learn as much as we can about Multiple Sclerosis, it's cause, and it's possible cures. Last night I was researching myelin regeneration (as I have a feeling this should be a huge focal point in the race to cure MS) and I stumbled across the "Myelin Repair Foundation".

"The Myelin Repair Foundation is the world’s largest non-profit research organization exclusively focused on developing the next generation of MS treatments—myelin repair."

Now I have yet to finish my research on myelin regeneration, in fact, I have only looked at the top of this iceberg. But strictly from a mechanical point of view, in my opinion, if you can repair damaged myelin while preventing T-Cell's from destroying oligodendrocytes (cells that produce myelin) then you would in theory be attacking the source of the symptoms we MS patients experience rather then just treating the symptoms themselves.

This wouldn't cure MS as there is still the actual source that leads to the Myelin being attacked in the first place but if you could work on controlling the "second source" of this disease you could possibly eliminate the symptoms associated with Multiple Sclerosis as long as you could maintain the damage done by T-Cells while keeping myelin growing faster then it can be destroyed.

Now keep in mind, what I just said is based off my own developing theories and speculations of MS and I am obviously NOT a doctor. I'm simply a guy doing research at home trying to learn more then the "Average Joe" regarding his own disease. But my basic model goes as follows:

1) Source of disease (Theories Obviously Vary)

Leads To

2) Demyelination

Leads To

3) MS Symptoms

So like I said above, right now the medications we take currently only tackles #3, but if you were to tackle #2 it would in theory tackle #3 as well. Of course, if you were to tackle #1 It would cure everything but I think right now there are just too many different theories to really get anywhere with that so focusing on regenerating myelin just seams like the obvious next best thing to me. But again, I'm no doctor, I could be totally wrong here which is why I still have much more research to do!

I usualy try to only post content on my blog that is actually mine but every once in a while I may make some exceptions. Below is a couple of videos from the Myelin Repair Foundation that I think are worth watching if you have MS or want to learn more about it.




Oligodendrocyte: Cells that produce Myelin
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Saturday, January 15, 2011

My Thoughts: Friendship

PhotobucketI have always been one to keep a few close friends in my life rather then surround myself in a huge social crowd. It's been hard for me lately not because MS has destroyed my friendships but because MS has allowed me to see people more clearly, to see them for who they really are, to “see their true colors” and unfortunately, I have not liked what I have seen so far... This has led to several of my good friendships falling apart.

Every incident has been different in it's own ways but fundamentally, when you break each situation down, all my friendships have ended for the same basic reason. I have been let down in some way shape or form as a friend. I have always gone above and beyond for my close friends, the people I care about, and the people I love. I have always put them all before myself, and truly tried to be there for them how ever I could. I slowly began to realize in the last few months that none of my friends were really willing to do the same for me. I'm not going to bring up any particular incidents because I am not trying to put anyone on the spot or bring my personal affairs into the matter but I can truly say that I have busted my ass for several of my friends who in return couldn't even show a little effort in trying to be there for me.

I try my best not to hold grudges but sometimes resentment is hard to shed, sometimes it's hard to forget the past and not be bitter. I don't let it anger me anymore because that is a waste of my emotional resources but to be bitter doesn't really take a toll on my emotional well being. Though I guess you could argue that this has caused me to grow cold and I know it, I can feel it, but I can't help it. Why should I care for those who have proven to not truly care for me? For those who have found it so easy to just walk away?

I have just a couple true friends left who I know are genuine but at this point I feel no desire to reconstruct old friendships because I don't know if I believe that people ever really change. It would take a lot for someone to prove to me they have changed, that they want to truly be my friend, but at this point, “sorry” won't do. “Sorry” has lost all it's value to me. Anyone can say it but not everyone can mean it let alone prove that they mean it.

When writing on my blog I try my best to maintain a positive attitude but I can't hide the fact that at this point in my life, I have a very grim view of humanity and it's not because of my MS. MS might have aided some of my negative views on humanity but for the most part it's my life experiences and social experiences that have lead me to think the way I think and feel the way I feel. Knowledge is power but knowledge can also be a painful burden. Maybe I have just yet to mature enough to know how to properly process and handle the knowledge I have obtained, I don't know, I just know that I am growing cold and calloused and I have no idea what it will take to change that or how long it will take for that to happen.

“Ignorance is Bliss”

A true statement indeed, but ignorance is just the path of least resistance, the easy way out, and knowing myself and my pride, I know that I can't take that route in life. I'll eventually have to learn to deal with knowledge, reality, the world, humanity, people, all of it. I'm not taking the easy way out, I will endure and I will overcome.
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Friday, January 14, 2011

Progress Update: Thoughts on this Exacerbation

PhotobucketSo I have been curious as to why when my first exacerbation was so bad a simple treatment of Solu-Medrol and Prednisone did the trick but this time around the same amount of steroids plus my disease modifying medication (Copaxone) hardly seams to be making a dent...

I brought this up to my mother who raised a good point: I have been on all this medication for some time, so who is to say that this exacerbation wouldn't have been just as bad as the first had I not been on all this medication? So I have been looking at this situation like the medication isn't working but what if this exacerbation was supposed to be worse then the first one but never got to that point because I already had the steroids in my system? As a matter of fact, I have never even got off Prednisone since the start of my MS, I have been on steroids for almost 6 months now!.

So I guess I should be grateful if this is the case because to go through what I went through the first time would be Hell...

Anyways, today my symptoms were really wacky... Had tingling in my legs for the first time in a while and my vision got kind of blurry for a short period of time. Balance was horrible! I could also tell that my cognitive functions were acting really slow..... Really slow.... I also felt like I was walking through a dream at one point, like time was slowing down all around me, it was really weird... And last but not least, something new... Noticed my right hand has been trembling throughout the day... Not too bad but enough to notice... Hopefully it doesn't turn into anything too big...

Well, at least my cold is much better, just have a bit of a stuffy nose but I can finally breath! So that makes me happy enough for now.

Oh yeah, something else worth mentioning: My parents and I finally figured out my insurance situation and looks like I can in fact see an MS specialist outside of Kaiser since Kaiser doesn't offer one. So I will be contacting a specialist at Loma Linda who is pretty well known and liked so I can't wait! I just need to get a referral from my current neurologist when I see her in February so it's a little ways away but I have grown patient in the last few months haha...

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Thursday, January 13, 2011

Young MS: A Place for Young People with MS

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Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Progress Update: The Common Cold

PhotobucketThe last couple of days have sucked because I caught the infamous common cold. Started as just a really sore throat and slowly turned into head congestion with an ear ache and of course, body aches... Been waking up around 3:00am because I either can't breath through my stuffy nose or am experiencing some kind of pain in my throat or ear... Not fun... Luckily it seams like the worse may be over but I don't want to speak too soon!

This has raised an interesting question though: I have been spending all this time trying to surpress my immune system and now that I actually need it what am I supposed to do? I can only assume that I have to feed my immune system a bit, let it kill off the cold, and just write off any negative MS side effects as "collateral Damage"... Not sure... Have to ask the doctor about that one. All I know is I want this cold to be gone!

Being sick has definitely made me realize that I don't want to be on Cellcept (immunosuppressant) because getting sick all the time is not worth possibly relieving the current MS symptoms I have. If it was a situation where I was back in a wheelchair then I might feel differently but as of right now Cellcept would probably lower my standard of living. I HATE being sick!
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Multiple Sclerosis Key Terms

Below is a list of "Key Terms" I commonly use throughout my Blog. They are not official definitions but merely rough definitions meant to help you get the idea of what I am talking about. I will update this list periodically.


Multiple Sclerosis (MS) - A chronic progressive disorder involving loss of myelin sheathing around nerves in the central nervous system. (It is believed to be an autoimmune disease in which the immune system attacks the central nervous system.)


Relapse – A worsening of symptoms following a period of remission.

Remission – A period of time where all or most symptoms subside.

Exacerbation – Also referred to as a relapse or flare up. This is simply an “MS attack” or flare up of symptoms.

Myelin – A fatty substance that acts as an insulation for our nerves to allow proper flow of electrical signals much like the wire of an electronic device in that electricity flows across a copper wire wrapped in a rubber insulation.

Lesion – When talking about MS, a lesion is typically a white spot on an MRI indicating damage to myelin.

Nerves – Nerves are basically the wiring system of our bodies that allow us to send electrical signals to and from the brain which in turn allows us to move about and feel.

Central Nervous System (CNS) - This system consists of the brain and spinal cord, where many bodily functions are controlled, many sensations are processed and signals are sent to different parts of the body.

Steroids – The two most common steroids in the world of MS are Prednisone and SoluMedrol. Their main goal is to reduce inflammation which helps relieve symptoms.

Inflammation – Inflammation can be looked at as “swelling” of the body which can cause damage to myelin.

MRI - Magnetic Resonance Imaging: This will produce multiple images of your body like an X-Ray only and MRI consist of many layers of images stacked on top of each other which allows you to see the image in a more 3-Dimensional manor.

Spinal Tap – A Procedure in which a needle is inserted into the lower spine to extract spinal fluid.


Disease Modifying Medication – Medications used to alter the course of a disease but not cure it.

Subcutaneous – A subcutaneous injection is one that injects just below the skin.

Fine Motor Control – Coordination of small muscle movements such as control of one's fingers.

Oligodendrocyte: Cells that produce Myelin
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My Story: As of January 2011

PhotobucketMy name is Matt Allen G and in August of 2010 at the age of 20, I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis (MS). This is the story of my first encounter with this life crippling disease that effects over 250,000 people in the United states alone.

Where it all began for me

I awoke one night at about 2 or 3 in the morning with a sharp pain in my lower back shooting down my left leg. It was excruciating and I've never experienced anything like it in my life. I thought maybe I had just slept in a bad position so I decided I was going to try to take a hot bath to relieve some of the pain. Before I could even get in, I found myself laying on the floor in pain.

I ended up going to the emergency room where I was told it was probably just a sciatica which is caused by inflammation resulting in pressure against the sciatic nerve: pain. They sent me home with all the pain killers I could ever want along with a hefty medical bill for the ER visit.

For the next week or two I was fine, wasn't even taking my pain killers. I now however, started waking up with a warm sensation in my right leg as if the hot sun was beaming through my window and shining upon my leg. Though my leg felt hot, it was not warm to the touch. At first I blew this off to be nothing like any other guy would...

About three or four days after I started noticing the warm sensation I realized something was wrong. I was taking a shower when I crossed my right foot under a small stream of water leaking from the bathtub faucet. If you have ever seen this in the past, you probably know that when this happens the water is usually extremely hot. When the water touched my foot I experienced a strange tingly sensation. I was not fully awake so it caught me by surprise and I did not know what to make of it until a few seconds later when I crossed my left foot under the water and burned myself. Confused, I crossed my right foot back under the water and it was at this point that I realized my right foot was numb. I could've held my right foot under that hot water all day if I wanted to.

After I got out of the shower I started experimenting. I used a knife to see if I could feel the sharp edge or point. I could not... Although, it was not completely numb because I could still tell that something was touching my foot. I would compare it to a trip to the dentist. When the dentist shoots you up with Novocain your lip usually feels fat. You still have some basic sensation however if you were to bite into your lip you could easily break the skin and not know it. This is how my foot felt.

I immediately called the nurse line where it was recommended that I head straight to urgent care. When I got there they told me it was more than likely my sciatic nerve acting up again despite the fact that this time it was in the other leg. Nothing to worry about, it will go away...

By the next day the numbness had spread up my leg to about my knee. Within a week it spread up the rest of my leg, past my waste, up my back, finally ending below my right shoulder blade. At this point, I had done enough research to know that the sciatic nerve starts at your lower spine and travels down each leg. Therefore, there was no way it could effect above my waist. This was not my sciatic nerve...

Back to urgent care, looks like a pinched nerve in my neck. More painkillers and some steroids (Prednisone) to reduce inflammation. I was suspicious of this pinched nerve theory because I didn't understand why my symptoms would start at my foot and work its way up if the problem started in my neck. But despite my suspicion my doctor seemed to be sure that this was nothing more than a pinched nerve.

Over the next couple of weeks my body began to fall apart at an extremely rapid rate. I first developed what is known as drop foot or foot drop. This is basically the paralysis of the muscles in your lower leg that are in charge of lifting your toes up when you take a step. As a result your foot drops and drags on the floor which can cause you to trip, fall, and seriously injure yourself. I struggled with walking for about a week and at first it seemed like I would be able to deal with this okay.

About a week later I started losing the fine motor control of my left hand and my walking had become much worse. I was loosing my sense of balance. As far as my left hand, I first started noticing a drop in fine motor control when I sat down to play guitar one day. I could not seem to hit the right frets on the neck of my guitar and at first I played the denial card. I told myself I probably just haven't played guitar in a long time and have lost some of my skill. Within the next few days it was clear, my hand was no longer functioning properly. The strength seemed to be there still but the coordination was gone. I couldn't type on the computer, do my hair, button my pants, or pretty much anything else that required any kind of coordination with my fingers. Soon I realized the left side of my body was slowly going paralyzed...

A Possible Diagnosis

At this point I had finally made an appointment with a neurologist. Right off the bat, she told me her guess was MS. At the time, I did not know what MS was but what I did know was I had heard the term on my favorite TV show “House” a million times so I knew that it could not be good... She ordered an MRI and CAT scan. When I got home my research began and it did not look good but we'll get to that in a minute...

Around the time I got my MRI done my symptoms had got way worse. I could barely walk, my hand was useless, and I had pretty much lost my sense of taste except for one small portion on the right side of my tongue. Weird...



PhotobucketMy MRI results were in so it was back to the hospital to review the results. My MRI showed multiple bilateral lesions. Basically, there were lots of spots on both sides of my brain. Looks like multiple sclerosis... The next step was a spinal tap to confirm the diagnosis and in the meantime, I was to get started on a stronger does of steroids called Solu Medrol which is administered through an IV. My neurologist also ordered a wheelchair for me because walking was just too difficult and dangerous at this point, so it was time for me to suck up my pride, something I had far too much of.

I was a little nervous about this spinal tap procedure because I thought it would be a brilliant idea to watch the procedure being done online before I had mine. For those of you who don't don't, a spinal tap is where they stick a giant needle into your spine to extract spinal fluid. However, it honestly was not that bad. The local anesthetics actually hurt worse than the spinal tap itself. It was not pleasant, but it was not as bad as everyone made it out to be.

Now that the spinal tap was done I got to start my steroid treatment the next day. The plan was to hook me up to an IV and pump me up with steroids which were supposed to help clear my lesions (I'll explain this further below) and hopefully most my symptoms. Obviously I was eager to start.

This is where the number one question arose, how long until the steroids worked? I could not get a straight answer from anyone... I was told for some people, improvements are noticed after about the third infusion. For others it can take up to two months for symptoms to clear up. So I had between 3 days to 2 months before I would possibly start seeing some improvements.

In my case, I did not see any immediate effects and when I did start seeing progress it was nothing drastic. Every day I would awake hoping that I would jump out of bed and be magically cured. This was not the case, instead, my progress was very gradual... I would compare the rate of my “recovery” to the rate at which my hair grows. I know that technically everyday my hair has grown but how much I couldn't tell you. After a month or so however, it is much more clear that I have gained a couple of inches. This was how my “recovery” was, I couldn't tell any difference on a daily basis, but after a long period of time I could look back and see settle changes.

Anyways, back to my IV treatment: I was to be on a steroid IV drip for five days at two hours a day. I was almost done with my treatment, but some new symptoms slowly arose, some weird ones including... Severe hiccups... As funny as it sounds, I could not stop hiccuping for about three days. I would hiccup about every three seconds for hours at a time. This was annoying, frustrating, and flat out ridiculous! I tried every home remedy imaginable, and nothing helped.

My Diagnosis: Multiple Sclerosis (MS)

Halfway into my Solu Medrol treatment I received a call during the middle of one of my infusions. My Spinal tap results were in and I did in fact have Multiple Sclerosis. Wow, not sure what to say but “OK”.

So now to answer the question of all questions: What is Multiple Sclerosis? Briefly put, MS is an autoimmune disease that attacks the central nervous system. So basically my immune system is attacking my brain and the nerves in my spine. It destroys the protective covering of my nerves known as “myelin” which acts as an insulation much like electrical wires need insulation to function properly. These damaged myelin spots are what come up as “lesions” on an MRI and are the cause of all MS symptoms.

At this time there is no cure for Multiple Sclerosis. There are FOUR TYPES of MS and at the moment it looks like I have what is known as Relapsing/Remitting Multiple Sclerosis (RRMS) which is the most commonly diagnosed form of MS. People with RRMS experience periods of relapses known as “exacerbations” and then periods of remission where most symptoms subside for some time.

CLICK HERE to read a much more in-depth article explaining what Multiple Sclerosis is.

Let's Wrap This Up

PhotobucketSo yeah, anyways, the other symptom I started noticing during my IV treatment was blurred vision... Vision loss is typically one of the first symptoms people experience when diagnosed with MS but for me it wanted to save the best for last... As it was, all I could do all day was lay around and watch TV. Now I couldn't even do that. I spent most my time laying down and listening to TV, preferably the History Channel or the Discovery Channel so I could at least learn something while I laid there like a vegetable with ears.


(The circles represent each of my eye balls, anywhere shaded black is where I was blind, the darker the black the more blind that spot was.)

It was now off to an optometrist to get glasses. They helped a little bit at first but by the next day my vision had further deteriorated so the glasses no longer worked as well as they had the first day. A little less than a week later I visited my uncle who is an optometrist. He looked me over and did a more in-depth examination to find that my eyes and optic nerves were in good health but after taking a detailed peripheral vision test we learned that the left side of each of my eyes were blind. So, it looked like the problem was in my brain where the signal from the optic nerve is interpreted. Glasses may have helped the fuzziness a bit but ultimately I was waiting on my lesions to clear before I could expect to see any progress with my blind spots.

I finally finished my IV treatment and my hiccups finally went away. It was now a waiting game of laying around half numb, half paralyzed, and half blind hoping to recover soon. I was given more Prednisone (oral steroids) to slowly taper me off of the Solu Medrol (IV steroids) and soon after that I chose my “disease modifying medication” Copaxone. Copaxone is a subcutaneous shot that I have to give myself everyday in hopes of prolonging my periods of remission and reducing the amount of relapses I will have throughout my life.

After a few months I finally reached a point where I could declare myself to be in remission! I was once again going on hikes, camping trips, and even motorcycle riding! I was as happy as I could ever be with a newfound respect for my body! This unfortunately only lasted about a month before I relapsed again. My second exacerbation (relapse) has not been nearly as bad but it has definitely slowed me down a bit... This is where I leave off because this next chapter of my journey with MS has not yet been written.

I have high hopes for my future regarding my good health so I remain as positive as I can! Keep an eye on my Progress Updates to see how I am doing!





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Sunday, January 9, 2011

Progress Update: Getting Better AND Worse...

PhotobucketIn my last progress update I asked the question "Am I getting better or worse?". I have finally come to the conclusion that I am getting both better AND worse...

The initial symptoms that presented themselves at the beginning of this relapse seem to be improving. The fine motor control in my left hand has without a doubt improved immensely: I can play piano again! Even a little guitar! The pins and needles in my left hand have greatly reduced, I can still feel a little in my fingertips but for the most part I don't even notice it anymore. I also only seem to feel the pins and needles in my right hand when I first wake up if I remember correctly. The pins and needles in my legs obviously went away a long time ago so that's pretty much that for the initial symptoms.

Now the bad: Balance and Lhermitte's Sign. In the last few weeks my balance has got much worse and of course the Lhermitte's Sign has been bugging me more then anything! It's like the better my other symptoms get the worse these last few symptoms get...

I really want to get some new MRI's done, one of my brain and one of my spine, so I can see what kind of changes have happened as far as my lesions are concerned. There are obviously new lesions in my spine/neck which would explain the Lhermitte's Sign but I'm not sure about everything else... So hopefully I can do that soon.

Something I ironically keep forgetting to mention is my cognitive functions... They have not been so good lately but of course for how long I really can't remember because I keep forgetting to mention it in my progress updates! Short term memory is horrible! I constantly loose my train of thought and struggle to find the right words. Ill see the object or concept in my head but I just won't be able to find the proper word for it! Drives me nuts! Not sure what can be done about all this but I feel like I need to start playing some "brain games" or something to maybe stimulate my brain a bit...

So that's pretty much where I'm at... Lhermitte's Sign driving me crazy and balance is deteriorating to the point where I really have to watch my step... Haven't tripped yet but I have come close a few times so hopefully I can avoid it all together.

Oh yeah, that crappy picture above, took it with my lame phone... Despite my current balance issues I went bowling the other night for the first time in a long time. Not the best score but hey, I finished with a Turkey haha... I know half of my poor score was because of my symptoms and also because they had just oiled the lanes so I couldn't get a spin going with the house ball... I really don't like my ball because it has too much of a curve so I didn't have the control I usually have but I don't know, excuses, excuses...

Anyways, we will see how the next few weeks treat me! Thanks for reading!
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Friday, January 7, 2011

Lhermitte's Sign

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Lhermitte's Sign
More than two thirds of those with Multiple Sclerosis experience what is known as “Lhermitte's Sign” or “The Barber's Chair Symptom”. It is a sensation of buzzing, tingling and electric shocks brought about by lowering the head as to bring the chin closer to the chest. These sensations are usually felt in the spine, arms, and legs.

What Causes 
Lhermitte's Sign?

There are many things that can lead to Lhermitte's Sign such as injury or side effects of medications but in Multiple Sclerosis it is typically the result of a lesion in the cervical spine (or neck). When the head is tilted downwards, the demyelinated nerves in the neck stretch causing erroneous electrical signals to be triggered which then causes parasthesia (the sensation of buzzing, tingling and electric shocks).

Symptoms (Parasthesia)

Lhermitte's Sign causes parasthesia which symptoms include but are not limited to:

Buzzing
Tingling
Pins & Needles
Prickling
Itching
Crawling Skin
Sensations of electric shock
Sharp Pains
Burning
Partial Numbness

The Barber's Chair Symptom

Ever wonder why it's sometimes called “The Barber's Chair Symptom”? What does a barber typically ask you to do when they need to trim your neck line? They ask you to tilt your head down, chin to chest!

Treatment

In some cases, Lhermitte's Sign can be treated with medications such as Anticonvulsants (Anticonvulsants are used to treat epileptic seizures) like Neurontin (Gabapentin) or Lyrica to block abnormal electrical signals in the brain. Others choose to wear a restrictive collar/brace that helps limit the range of movement that can be achieved with the neck in order to prevent positioning the spine in such a way that would trigger the sensations of paraesthesia. When this option is chosen it is important to make sure with your therapist that your neck does not grow weak or loose range of motion over time. In some cases,  a physical therapist may also set you up with a tens machine (transcutaneous electrical nerve stimulation) which uses small electrodes that stick to your skin, attach to a small battery pack, and delivers a small pulsing electrical signal which can block pain receptors

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The 4 Types of MS

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For anyone newly diagnosed with MS, you will quickly learn that the disease effects everyone differently for many different reasons. One reason is the fact that there are several different types of MS much like there are different types of apples, they may all be apples but some are red, some are green, some are sweet, and some are sour. Let's go over the different types of Multiple Sclerosis which include relapsing-remitting MS (RRMS), secondary-progressive MS (SPMS), primary-progressive MS (PPMS), and progressive-relapsing MS (PRMS).

Relapsing-remitting MS (RRMS)
About 50% of MS Population

This is the most commonly diagnosed form of Multiple Sclerosis. People with RRMS experience exacerbations (flareups/relapses) and then will go into periods of remission where some or all of their symptoms may subside. The duration of each relapse or remission period varies form person to person: a period of remission could last as little as a month or as long as five years, because the disease effects everyone differently, it's unfortunately a wait and see kind of thing, there is no way to predict what your relapse or remission experience will be like.

Secondary-progressive MS (SPMS) 
About 50% of people with RRMS Develop SPMS

Secondary-progressive MS typically develops from RRMS over a gradual period of time, 10 years on average, but the numbers can vary anywhere from 2 years to 40 years. People with SPMS experience less relapses but gradually obtain more permanent symptoms.


Primary-progressive MS (PPMS) 
About 10% of MS Population

PPMS is characterized by a steady worsening of symptoms over time without periods of relapsing or periods of remissions though there may be short periods of time where the progression of the disease may slow down or remain steady for some time.

Progressive-relapsing MS (PRMS) 
About 5% of MS Population

PRMS basically involves the steady worsening of permanent symptoms over time much like PPMS only people with PRMS will experience periods of remission where recovery from an exacerbation happens quite rapidly. When someone with PRMS is in “remission” they will experience the effects of their permanent symptoms, so basically, the level of recovery they reach with each remission will gradually decrease over time.

Related Articles:

How Do You Know if You Have Secondary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis? 
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Thursday, January 6, 2011

Multiple Sclerosis: Acceptance

PhotobucketAt the time of writing this article I have had MS for just over five months now, five months, such a long yet short period of time. I have spent these months learning about the disease as well as the people who live with the disease and I have learned a lot about both. One thing in particular that I have learned about people living with MS is that a lot of people seem to have a hard time accepting the disease, some are even embarrassed that they are stuck with it.

Now please keep in mind, this is only my opinion, I mean no offense to anyone out there and I certainly don't mean to belittle anyones feelings in any way shape or form, I simply am voicing my opinion in hopes that it will change the way someone may think about living with MS, that is all.

After I slowly realized that most people take years to come to terms with their disease I looked back over my own short experience with MS and realized that I seemed to have accepted the diseases almost immediately... Sure I had my ups and downs, but for the most part I was never in a state of denial, and I never tried to hide the fact that I had MS. I immediately decided (once I was able) that I was going to share my MS experience with the world in hopes that I would help other's who were suffering with similar issues. At the same time, I want to be clear, I didn't go around announcing that I had MS, I wasn't looking for any pity or anything like that, but if someone asked “Hey why are you walking funny” I had no problem replying “Well, I was just diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis, an autoimmune disease that attacks the central nervous system”.

Now MS effects everyone differently and that also applies to one's emotions. Considering most people are uncomfortable with accepting or sharing their disease with others I can only assume that that is a normal emotion to be felt but it is one that I honestly don't understand. You see, the way I have always looked at it is it's an illness. We did not choose to have MS, we didn't do anything wrong to get MS, MS just happened. To me getting MS was no different then getting the flu, we don't choose to get the flu, it just happens and usually we have no problem telling people “Sorry, I can't come over today, I have the flu”. Nothing embarrassing about it right?

So why should we feel embarrassed about having MS? If anything, we should feel empowered because now we have to deal with the everyday troubles and pressures of life along with a life changing disease on top of that. So if we can continue our life and keep up with everyone else it's like running a marathon with 100 pounds of weights on our shoulders and still keeping up with all the other runners. Realisticly speaking, we may have trouble walking, seeing, and doing other simple tasks, but really in the end, we are stronger then the average person because we are still keeping up!

I'm not saying I am proud to have MS I am simply saying I am proud to still be living my life with MS. MS may slow me down but it will never stop me. I live my life in hopes that when I tell someone for the first time that I have MS they will think “Damn, this guy has MS and he still has lived such a fulfilling, accomplished, life, impressive!” MS has motivated me to do more with my life, to be more, and to see more, so for me personally, I have nothing to hide, I only have things to share.
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Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Progress Update: Am I Getting Better or Worse?

PhotobucketOk so I am getting kind of frustrated here because I can't tell if I am getting better or worse... In my last post I mentioned the Lhermitte's Sign I am dealing with (which by the way, I have felt in my spine a few times since yesterday) but I have also been noticing some balance issues. To be quite honest I have been playing the denial card but now I have to accept that my balance is definitely acting up right now, in fact, since yesterday I have noticed several times that my foot (left I think) has dragged a couple of times throughout the day... An all too familiar symptom of the beginning of my first exacerbation. I am not sure what this means but it sure is frustrating me...

It really makes no sense since I have been eating healthier in the last week or two and have been taking it easy physically. I also have eliminated quiet a few "stressors" from my life so what the heck? Why am I not feeling better? I am going to push the dieting a little harder and see if that helps, I am actually going to try some fish soon... Omega-3 fatty acids... A powerful anti-inflammatory agent so I hear... Not looking forward to it but who knows, maybe it won't be that bad. I am going with Salmon for those of you wondering...
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Sunday, January 2, 2011

Progress Update: Lhermitte's Sign

PhotobucketSo lately it seams like my left hand is doing much better, I still feel the pins and needles in the tops of my fingers but the fine motor control has improved immensely! I can play piano (not 100% though) and I can feel the strings on my guitar well enough to play some chords but melodies are still a little tough... I am mostly glad that I can type with both hands again, as cool as voice recognition software is, I prefer to just play it old school and use my fingers...

Anyways, I wanted to mention the one symptom that has proven to be persistent among all others in the last few weeks...

Lhermitte's Sign

I have still yet to grasp a complete understanding of how and why this happens but basically what Lhermitte's Sign is, is the sensation of pins and needles or electric shock in the spine and/or limbs when the head/neck is tilted downwards... I Mostly get it in my arms and it feels just like being electrocuted if you have ever been unfortunate enough to experience that like myself... When it's really bad it radiates throughout my legs and toes as well. This is now the most annoying symptom I am dealing with at the moment...

I don't know if my cognitive issues are getting better or if I am simply getting used to them but it hasn't been bugging me as much lately... I could just be focusing on the Lhermitte's Sign though, I am not sure... Balance has not changed at all either... Vision seams to be just fine though so that's good. I am really going to try to "relax" in the next week or so and avoid any kind of stressful situation which should be easy now given my current personal life's situation.... Yeah..... Anyways....

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Side Note: I am working on a website with a fellow MS friend of mine, Britney, called "Young MS" and it's basically going to be a place for young people with MS to meet people, learn, and realize that MS is not the end of the world! It's under construction right now but feel free to check it out and show your support!
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