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My name is Matt and I am 22 years old living with Multiple Sclerosis in SoCal. Most people fins me via my blog at http://www.mattsms.com and I work to connect people with MS from all over the world of different ages, genders, and walks of life.

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Meet Matt!

Hi! My name is Matt and I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis at the early age of 20 in August of 2010, this is my story in progress!

So What is Multiple Sclerosis?

Multiple sclerosis: An autoimmune disease that attacks the central nervous system which consist of the brain, optic nerves, and all the nerves in the spinal cord.

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Monday, May 20, 2013

I Will Be In and Out for the Next few Weeks


Hey everyone, I know I have been kind of a ghost lately, I have just been so tired! Sleep, sleep, sleep. Feels like that is all I want to do, I wake up after a solid 8 hours and all I can think about once I am up and in the shower is how much I wish I was back in bed! Then I tried sleeping in a few hours the other day and I felt like crap all day, so, that was a bad idea. I will stick to 8...

Anyways, I probably will not be posting much at all in the next few weeks, my girlfriend is flying in tomorrow and she will be here for a few weeks so we will be spending as much of that time together as we can! Doubt I will want to be on the computer! So I will be back soon!
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Friday, May 17, 2013

Shared Solution Program - Campath

Yesterday I went to another Shared Solutions program where Dr. Bailey spoke about the different Multiple Sclerosis therapies, a few other quick topics, and answered various questions from the audience. I met a woman who was diagnosed with MS about a year ago and her father who was diagnosed with Parkinson's at about the same time. Overall it was a pretty good event and I really enjoyed it.

One thing I should share is that Dr. Bailey is not too big a fan of the oral therapies basically for the same reasons that I am not a fan of them for; they have not been out long enough to see the long term effects of the drugs. He spent a while talking about Tecfidera (BG-12) and how they basically rushed it to the market to promote it as the "cure for MS" (hence the hype over the drug) when in fact they are overlooking the fact that it has been linked to PML (Progressive multifocal leukoencephalopathy) which I recently wrote about. Sure it may help some patients but if no one is really looking at the potential dangers then will this drug ultimately help or hurt patients in the long run?

Dr. Bailey went over all the main therapies and asked who was on which ones by show of hands. Of course most the people there were on Copaxone (since this was a Shared Solutions event) and I was the only one in the room on Tysabri (haha). He went over other medications from Solu-Medrol to Baclofen for relapse treatment and symptom control.

After the program I asked Dr. Bailey about that medication he mentioned to me before my last infusion, the one I could not remember the name of. The medication he told me about (that would probably be a good candidate to switch to from Tysabri if I understood correctly) was Campath. Campath (alemtuzumab) was originally used to treat forms of leukemia but is being tested for the treatment of Multiple Sclerosis. It is given intravenously (through and IV) for 3-5 days once a year. It acts by killing T-cells and has been shown to halt disability progression and sometimes even reverse it (immediately) over the first 3 years. Although the medication is really focused on relapsing remitting MS it was tested on patients with progressive forms of MS and it did in fact prevent the formation of new lesions over seven years but did not prevent the long term disability effects of the disease. I will have to do more research and keep an eye on this because it does sound pretty interesting...
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Wednesday, May 15, 2013

It Must Be the Heat... I am an MS Zombie!


I don't know what is going on, the days just disappeared... All I want to do is sleep! It must be the heat! I mean, I have my A/C running like 24/7 but STILL, I just feel so fatigued lately! Around 4:00pm I lay down for a quick nap which quickly turns into a few hours... This is not normal for ME.

On top of that my cognition has not been great lately either, I feel like someone took the oil out of the machine I call my brain and replaced it with molasses! I feel like an MS Zombie! I mean I have got some stuff done "around the house" but that is mostly because it's easier to just get into the motion of cleaning without thinking whereas something like blogging requires motivation (or obligation like today haha) and thinking. But still, I don't recall much of what I have done lately and I am mixing my dreams with reality again; forgetting if I actually talked to someone about something or if I just had a dream that I did... It's a weird feeling...

I hate the summer with the passion of THE ONE burning sun that heats up this place I call home but others call Hell.

I am also noticing my balance is still not doing anything but slowly getting worse and I am also getting a tad more clumsy. I slammed by finger in my door, I stubbed my toe pretty hard, I have burned myself cooking a few times, and that on top of my inner lip/gums hurting from my trip to the dentist the other day has just made me miserable. So yeah, I am going slow, but I really need to get back on track, I went for a quick walk about 30 minutes ago and wow, my legs are tight, my balance is off, my gate is not great, and my muscles quickly felt limp as if I had just finished 3 sets of a heavy weight lifting session and now I was trying to squeeze in a fourth. The heat is making my body malfunction, I can't wait to leave this place... $$$$$$$$.............
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Friday, May 10, 2013

Dentist and... Car Fuse...


Well I did not do too much today, just two things that took for ever. Actually three things but one was pretty quick.

First I went to the auto store to get a new fuse for the cigarette lighter so that I can charge my phone in the car. The lady who worked there had no idea what she was doing and could not even help me find the right fuse, "sorry..." she said. So I pulled out my phone and figured it out on my own since I did not have the user manual with the fuse box diagram. It's OK, that's why I drove all the way to the auto store, not for help, just for the mood and atmosphere of fixing a car. I got the fuse for a few bucks and replaced it in the parking lot. Now I can charge my phone. Easy. Thank you Google.

Next I went to the Pet Store and got 4 Neon Tetra because I good cleaned my fish tank the other day and found that my remaining snail was dead so the tank was rather empty... Since I do not want my girlfriend to come over in 12 days and think I have a fish tank full of pet rocks, I wanted to add some tank mates in with my Beta fish and African Dwarf Frog so I got the 4 Neon Tetras (since they are too fast for the Beta Fish to attack, so they say). They seem to fit in so far, we will see tomorrow...

Then at 11:00 I had a dentist appointment because that troublesome tooth replacement chipped again... Third time? They wanted to just add more resin but I said no because I am tired of coming in every two months to have it redone. I wanted something better or I wanted a refund. We ended up going with a crown (I set up a payment plan for that $900 cap thing) and that took for ever! Lots of molds! I just have a temporary right now and when the permanent is done I have to go back in to have that put on and then I hopefully won't be dealing with this tooth crap anymore! I am still going to be extra careful with it but I did confirm that it is stronger than what I had before.

IDK why but now I am so tired! All I did was lay there but I guess it still wore me out... So I think I am just going to take it easy for the rest of the day and try not to nap even though I want to... Last night I got really fatigued out of nowhere and ended up falling asleep around 5:00pm. I woke up for dinner and knocked right back out... ZZZzzz...
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Thursday, May 9, 2013

Tysabri Round 5 - IVIG - New MS Drug?

Yesterday I had my 5th Tysabri infusion. Before they hooked me up I saw my neurologist as always. Everything seemed fine with me so I asked him a question. I wanted to know if what everyone says about the rebound effect of Tysabri is true. For those of you who do not know, they say that if you stop Tysabri then in about 4 months you will undergo renewed disease activity, or in simpler terms, you will relapse hard! The disease seems to become about three times more active. "They" say the shorter the amount of time you have been on Tysabri, the worse your MS was before you started it, and the better Tysabri has helped you, the worse you will rebound after you stop Tysabri. So I asked him if this was true and he said definitely, every bit of it. I then asked if that meant I was stuck on Tysabri indefinitely since I was three for three on the above factors. He said "no, hell no".

He mentioned switching to another therapy if that time came and I mentioned that I have read that it doesn't seem that switching to any treatment after stopping Tysabri prevents the rebound. He then told me about a new MS treatment they are working on, I can not recall the name nor can I find it online, this treatment is also given via IV but not as "often" as Tysabri. I forge the name, I am so mad at myself, but it's not FDA approved yet so it's not Novantrone. I want to find out what this is because this could change the course of my life drastically so if you have heard of it please let me know below!

He also asked how the Acthar (ACTH) is working and I told him well and when he asked about the last round I did I told him that it did not seem to be working as well as usual but that is probably because it's getting hot again. He brought up IVIG (Intravenous immunoglobulin) and how he thought it would be worth a try. I have not got familiar with IVIG yet because no one was ever willing to give me anything but steroids before so I can't exactly say what it is yet. Nonetheless, I said "let's do it" so he wrote the prescription and told me it's a 5 hour IV but they would send someone to my house to set me up with an IV at home. 5 hours sucks but at least I get to do it at home and it will be worth it if it helps!

So I am going to try to find out more about this mystery IV drug and will post about it if and when I find out about it. I will also talk about IVIG when I know more!
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Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Insomnia: How to Treat it and Simple Remedies



What is Insomnia?

This is really easy to explain; Insomnia is the inability to sleep. In MS, though many patients experience insomnia, this is usually not a direct result of the disease itself but instead the result of a secondary factor such as spasticity, muscle spasms, stress, depression, or the need to use the restroom. Tight muscles (spasticity) can be painful and keep you awake or maybe you can fall asleep but keep waking up because your legs or arms will jerk (spasms) and cause you to jump awake. Of course you might slowly wake up a few times a night to go to the bathroom or after the stress of not being able to fall or stay asleep finally overwhelms you, you might be awake staring at the ceiling at 3am due to the stress of not being able to sleep more than anything else.

How to Treat Insomnia

Sleep is important to everyone but for those of us with MS sleep is a vital part of maintaining our health. Poor sleep can cause symptoms to flare which can lead to accidents, which lead once again to a larger flare, a vicious circle that is hard to brake out of, here are some remedies for insomnia.

  1. Create a habit. Go to bed at the same time every night to help train your body.
  2. Take Melatonin every night at the same time before bed. Melatonin is a natural supplement produced by your body when it believes it is time to go to sleep. Melatonin does not induce sleep, it just tells your body it's time to start shutting down by setting your internal clock. Do this for about 2 weeks.
  3. Avoid lights about an hour before bed, this means no computers or cell phones! Light INHIBITS the body's production of melatonin which means your body will not start shutting down for the night.
  4. No games or anything that keeps your brain interacting/thinking. You need it to relax not think! For people with insomnia, this even means  no reading before bed!
  5. No caffeine! This should go without saying but make sure you don't have things like coffee, soda, or certain teas before or around your bed time. How long should you avoid drinking caffeine before bed you ask? Well everyone is different, some people can drink it right before bed and some people can't have it after noon or else they can't sleep so you kind of have to figure it out, the earlier you cut it off the better if you ask me!
  6. Avoid alcohol and nicotine in the evening.
  7. Try playing some kind of music or white noise as you fall asleep. This can even be the faint hum of a fan to give you something to focus on rather then listening to your thoughts go on and on all night. This helps some people but others do not like it. I don't recommend anything with vocals or else you will be thinking about the lyrics!
  8. TV before bed is not a good idea because of the light but what I do is cover the screen so all I can do is listen to the TV and then I put the timer on so that the TV turns off after I fall asleep.
Medication:

If you still can't make sleeping a habit again talk to your doctor about medication. Typically they will prescribe a benzodiazepine which works my reducing/slowing the electrical signals in the brain. These should only be taken as needed because they are definitely habit forming and loose their kick after a while so the less you use them the longer they will keep that kick you need for those really bad nights.

Some common medication for insomnia may include (but are not limited to):
  • Ambien (zolpidem)
  • Lunesta (eszopiclone)
  • Rozerem (ramelteon)
  • Sonata (zaleplon)
  • Silenor (doxepine)
Benzodiazepines
  •  Halcion (Triazolam)
  •  Restoril (Temazepam)
  • Klonopin (clonazepam)
  •  Xanax (alprazolam)
 Over The Counter (OTC)
  • Diphenhydramine (Benadryl, Zzzquil, Allermax, Dytuss, Q-Dryl, Siladryl, Theraflu Thin Strips Multisymptom Triaminic Thin Strips Allergy, Unisom Sleepgels Maximum Strength, Valu-Dryl, etc)
  • Tylenol PM
  • Unisom
My Experience

I get insomnia all the time, it just comes and goes even when the previous day I was dealing with horrible fatigue. For me setting a schedule and avoiding light really did the trick. I have to have white noise to sleep though or else my mind keeps ticking all night. I cover my TV screen, set it to the History Channel, set the timer for about an hour an a half, and listen to some educational facts until I drift away. Sometimes I have really bad nights and have to use medication but I really try not to take anything because I don't want to need a pill to fall asleep every night. I take Restoril (Temazepam) and that usually knocks me out in about - well, I don't know, must be fast if I can't remember haha!

But seriously, I can not stress this enough, you have to have a "getting ready for bed" time every night, a routine. I turn off my computer about an hour before bed, dim the lights, take my shower, and lay down nice and relaxed. I can't just jump from working on the computer into bed no matter how tired my body is because my brain will just stay wide awake!
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Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Tight and Stabbing Legs


I had a horrible day yesterday, my legs were killing me! I just wanted to lay down and let them chill out. My legs were so tight! I tried going for a walk to loosen them up but with every step it felt like the muscles in my legs were ripping. So my legs felt like they were tearing or being stabbed with a long needle every few seconds. I ended up somewhat regretting the walk idea and just wanting to lay down. But it was so nice outside! Cool, cloudy, and rainy, how could I stay inside??

I did feel really tired today though, I just woke up from a nap, forced up by my alarm, I still feel tired but if I stay in bed I won't sleep through the night. This summer warming up crap is really depressing me though, it's making me feel like I actually have MS and that is hard when just 2 months ago I was in Ireland feeling like I had no illness at all thanks to the weather I presume. I want that back... It made me realize that something here is messing me up, it's depressing, frustrating... All I need is to move to a cooler area and my MS is as good as gone... So simple... But as always, my life is being dictated by money, money I do not have. Its not fair.

Anyways, I have been having a hard time writing lately, I am just so tired and feeling unmotivated in life. I am trying to change that but it's just been hard so I don't know... I will get back into the same as wuickly as I can!
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Monday, May 6, 2013

Ireland Pictures: Sligo Trip







































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Saturday, May 4, 2013

I Can't Stop Sleeping


I just can't get back on track... I have been so tired! I am sure it's because it is warming up and that is increasing my fatigue. I just keep falling asleep, I am sleeping my days away, I hate it! Waste... So I have to learn how to better cope with this because I am getting nothing done, at all... I can't do this all summer, I have stuff I need to do to move forward in life. I do plan on moving to Washington (probably Olympia) to live a better life in cooler weather, weather unlike California weather and closer to Dublin weather. The thing is I need money to make the move and start my life which means I need a job but in order to work a job I need it to not be hot. I need to move to be able to work and I need to work in order to move... I don't want to wait 6 months to start this process so you can see my paradox here... I think I am going to need a night job because that's when it is cooler outside...

I can't write... I can't think and my hands are not doing what I want them to do, very unsteady and jumpy... So I have to go for now. I will try again on Monday, we will see how tomorrow goes!
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